A couple of days ago I hurt my leg at the gym. One of those silly annoying injuries that didn’t seem like a big deal at the time but which has left me walking around like I am 80 years old! It also means that I haven’t done any exercise for the last two days. And I never thought I would be the type to say this, but I think I am missing it. Not in a, “OMG I just am not myself unless I have run 10kms before breakfast” kind of way – more of a, “Mmm, I am not quite feeling myself – I wonder why that is” kind of way.
The exercise part of this program was always going to be the biggest challenge for me – even more than the coffee! Apart from playing sport at school, I never really liked running. It may be a poor excuse, but I just don’t think my body was made for running. I have seen myself – and I look ridiculous. I don’t have one of those ‘nice’, rhythmic running styles. I have more of an awkward, this is not natural kind of style. And I don’t really like sitting on a bike either. I did try a couple of Spin classes, but I was so preoccupied with how uncomfortable I was (i.e. how much my bum hurt on the seat) I never really paid attention to what I was supposed to be doing.
I go to the gym because I know I should. And even after nearly 4 weeks of spending 6 days a week there, I still have to make myself go. And I am sort of stuck in this Catch 22… I am sure one of the reasons I don’t like exercising as much as I should or could, is because I have never really found anything I like doing. I walk on the treadmill with my iPod blaring and I watch the timer. I don’t really like the group classes. As much as I try not to, I spend half the class comparing myself to the rest of the group and then feel crappy. But, I also understand that the more I do something, the better I will get and then it will become more enjoyable. See what I mean?
There is no doubt that I have noticed the difference over the last couple of days but it has not been so much of a difference that I am now a converted gym junkie – however, I will be back there tomorrow, pounding along on the treadmill, lifting some weights because I know, deep down, that is best for me and my body. And after all, that is what this program has been all about!